Anyway, it's another grey day, and raining again. Today I do my final dive here concentrating on better buoyancy and trying to get off some of the weights I carry as I have too many. My instructor is a lovely guy, he's 25 and what struck me when I saw him was that he only has one leg, I wondered if this would be a challenge, it probably was when he first lost it but after seeing him dive I realise that diving is probably a greater freedom for anyone with a disability because it's like flying underwater. Anyway, he spends his time working as a diving instructor and very much enjoying life. I was telling him about my private pilots licence and he'd love to do it, and I can't see any reason why he shouldn't except I imagine/I know the aviation authorities are completely anal about things.
The final dive was a little dreary as there weren't really many fish around, and anyway, we concentrating on swimming through a hoop without hitting it and floating mid water with only breathing making you go up or down a little.
When I returned to my room I was met with a slight surprise, all the beds that had been abandoned had been made up...as had mine, everything that wasn't in a locker, like my sleeping bag, clothes, toiletries, shoes...everything, had gone
! I was fuming. I headed off to reception to ask where it had all gone, their excuse for removing it all was that I hadn't left my passport behind reception - I'd paid 3 days in advance instead, and now owed them 2 more nights, but I told them it was unacceptable because I was CLEARLY still occupying that space. They gave me a bag of my things, I went back to my room and emptied, found half a dozen things still missing and returned to reception 3 times to tell them what was still missing, honestly I was so so cross. By the end of the day I had had most things returned to me except my mossie repellant and a mossie 'clicker' that cost about £9. As they had lost it and couldn't find I told them how much it was worth, and basically, the cost of my 2 nights accommodation was £8, so I didn't pay them in the end. I hope they will think twice before just removing everything the next time. They don't really have any right to keep your passports, but I shouldn't be treated like a criminal who might not pay either.
I chatted with Barry, an American ex pilot/cop and we played with the 10 month old monkey who can nip you if she gets over excited. See monkey photos!
08:51 The monsoon has begun properly now, yesterday it rained very heavily most of the day and as I was completely knackered it wasnt a bad thing because I stayed inside and watched films, but I was stupidly tired all day. I had another early night and slept brilliantly which I haven't for a few nights as I've been disturbed by vivid dreams of getting back together with my ex (still!!! argh!) and feelings of anxiety. I guess the end of my trip and no responsibility is drawing near and I have underlying feelings of worry. I have been incredibly well this year with not even a hint of a relapse despite everything I've done, and can see that if I'm allowed to manage myself with my energy levels and have no stress I don't get ill. How the hell do you ever explain that to an employer though? I work hard and diligently and just need people to trust that my moral standards are high and that I want to work but I have to look after myself too, that has to be my top priority, peopel don't seem to want to trust you though