Jan 28, 2010
Jul 20, 2010
From this experience, I am forever changed. I have seen the worst - the horrors of a disease, and the best - the way that a community pulled together, and in a way she played her part. She was a difficult patient - truly a difficult one - but you learn what it means to have unconditional love.
My friend's sister finally passed away - the one I had written about before. It was a bit difficult for me - as I went to her cry-die (the African version of a wake), I felt numb and in shock. I thought about the past month and a half that she was under my care - she had end stage AIDS, wasting, toxoplasmosis and her body was wracked with painful blisters. It was even sometimes difficult to look at her and her situation. The last few days, she had a change in mental status - and I was told that she had kept calling my name. I had been her nurse the whole time, and although at times she was a difficult patient, it goes to show that no matter the experience, you can always use it for the good and to change yourself into a more compassionate, loving person. Through her, I learned how to become a better nurse and a more patient person. And I thought, the world has lost a unique person - never again will there be a person such as her. I had been with her through her last days on earth - I had been the nurse who admitted her, the nurse who treated her for her ailments, and when I received the call at home that she had passed, the nurse who went to the hospital to wrap her body. This for me, was great closure - because it was the last act of love I could do for her.