Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!
Trip Start
Jun 13, 2008
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Trip End
Dec 16, 2008
Guadeloupe,
Guadeloupe
Thursday, July 3, 2008
I don't know what to do, what I'm supposed to do! What, am I seriously going to leave tropical paradise with free room + accommodation + salary for cold and EXPENSIVE Europe?? Another what, 6000 euro loan??
When I could stay here, enjoy the sun, have fun, chill, hang out, but probably not learn that much?
It's just.
God!!!
It was a little bit busy last night, some unexpected arrivals, some problems to solve, and I was loving it, I had to arrange I had to fix stuff I had to translate and do my best to provide for the clients - and I loved it
Timal
!And it's going to be like that ... in like october.
And then, I don't know. I'm falling in love with life here. I'm falling in love with my everyday life, just how... I love hitchiking. I love how everyone's nice and I'm not gonna lie I love how guys pay for everything ; D
I love that anything goes. You can do whatever you want, I haven't even seen police since I got here, you could probably get away with murder. I feel free. I feel totally free.
Right now that is.
Then again, some nights it sucks hard and long that it's small, if you don't go crazy there's absolutely nothing to do. It's either stay in and watch stupid french TV with Timal or go out and get into crazy shit. I love the crazy shit, but won't I get tired of it?
And it's not healthy. It's not good for me. I've done this lifestyle before and I know where it leads. It is SOOO much FUCKING FUN though. Just. Doing whatever I want. No one to tell me that it's not socially acceptable or illegal or whatever.
Is it freedom or is it insanity?
It's me
Portuguese Boys Friend
.I'm having a hard time leaving this because I'm living life. I'm having it. I'm doing it. Whatever I want.
BUT. There's no alternative. I can't go to Starbucks just to chil, I can't go anywhere to be alone, I can't go jogging, there are no parks, no gyms, no icerinks, no cinemas, no cities. There's nowhere to be anonymous there are no malls or stores to wander. It's party like its 1999 or go to sleep until tomorrow.
So I guess, I'm having a hard time leaving it because I'm allowed to go crazy here and I won't get that anywhere else.
The island will still be here though.
Aaand there's always high season.
I could come back for high season.
Obviously not this year, but in the future.
OK, I need to start looking at negatives because I AM in fact LEAVING.
I got my ticket and everything
...
.So, Martina, tell me, what sucks with being here.
...
Work. I'm not learning anything.
Some people here are complete idiots. Which doesn't bother me that much anymore becaue I'm starting to make other friends. Thing is though, most of those "friends" are guys who are actually more into getting me to sleep with them than being my friends. So that is not sustainable and I will get fed up with it really soon, for sure. Or even worse, I'll fall for someone and then I definately wont want to leave.
God, am I getting any closer to a conclusion?
I feel like I'm still at the Aaaaaaaaaaa!! I was at when I first started writing. And I thought writing about it would help.
So, options.
I got this internship possibilty in HR at Hilton in Dublin. Just did the interview today and I think it wen't well. She's going to get back to me next friday about that. They would want me to start as soon as possible and they don't offer accommodation, food, salary - nothing. So yay, back to CSN. F-ck.
I got another offer from FO at Novotel, Madrid
Two halves of gum make a whole : D
. Don't know when don't know what they'd offer. I need to look into that. Madrid though.. been there, done that. Do I wanna do it again? I'm not feeling Madrid, but if they offer benefits and stuff... Dublin though.. never been there so that might be cool, but doesn't it rain all the freakin time?Then Alex is going to check FO at Ritz, Paris. OMG Paris... I loooooveeee Paris. I love it. This lifestyle I've got going here could quite easily be transfered to Paris. I could go crazy in Paris. I could have fun in Paris. It would still cost a fortune but the kind of fun I have in Paris is just .. heaven.
It would be the third time I live there though. Shouldn't I be trying to broaden my horizons??
On the other hand I need to benefit from crazy Paris nightlife while I'm still young.
And the Ritz...
Tell me what to do!!!
