Two month anniversary - deep and meaningful
Trip Start Jun 29, 2005
235Trip End Nov 30, 2009
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Anyway, this is a journey of discovery so have I learned anything? Yes, I think I have.
The first thing I've realised is that since my formative years, I've never been passionate about anything, or anything useful at any rate. Nothing that has guided me into a particular field or career like other people seem to.
Sure I've had interests, I know a little about a lot of things, and I seem to help start or latch onto a fad pretty quickly (an early adopter in marketing parlance), but I've never really focused on something, learned it inside out, dedicated lots of spare time to it and become the resident nerd in its regard. Where other people have been inspired by circuit boards and got into computing, or healing people and became doctors, or watched birds and always wanted to fly (so they became pilots) - I flitted from one interest to the next, was a little above average at most things and still have no idea what the hell I'm doing...
Now I understand that many people are like me and sort of play life by ear, but I'm like Neo in the Matrix who prefers to make his own future, not have fate decide it for him. Therefore I'm going to have to think and work on it, then take the red pill and see where the rabbit hole leads.
More on that down the track. What else has greased the squeaky wheels of my brain?
Another thing is that I'm enjoying this writing - both in this travel blog and other projects. No doubt most of you have probably already surfed off to something more interesting because I'm already 20 or 30 thousand words in, but I would have written more I suspect if it was a little easier to write on the boat. I was always a tad disoriented whilst underway. Anyway, it gets easier to write as you get used to making time for it, so maybe it's something to get more passionate about... We shall see.
And whilst it sounds like I've been to a lot of exotic places already, I haven't really extended myself yet. That means I haven't really put myself in harm's way and gone independent to some remote or difficult places. Will I toughen up unless I do? Who knows, however I expect to find out soon if I take a land route through Java to Jakarta, or in Burma if my travels take me there...
Probably related to that is my introverted and aloof tendencies, which puts me at a disadvantage sometimes. However, the world doesn't stop if you're feeling 'out of sorts' so I think I'll add to my to do list something like "Go out of your way to say 'hi' to at least 5 people per day" and just meet more people. I shouldn't hold back, most of us like a little attention after all.
Finally, problems go away when you don't hear the news. World War 3 could have started for all we knew on the boat and now we're back in civilisation you still have to make an effort to get first hand news. It's great not watching television or integrating a news site or paper into your every day. Will have to get back to it one day but removing a bunch of inane concerns certainly helps develop a little perspective on what's important and what's not.
Well, hopefully that wasn't too spooky. Shall get back to the Bali entry which should be immensely more exciting than this one. Ciao for now.
Words from the wise (i.e. not me) #49
"It pays to be obvious, especially if you have a reputation for subtlety."