Mom Questionairre
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Granada,
Spain and Canary Islands
Friday, October 26, 2007
Mom: The worry meter is starting to register. Please fill out the following brief questionnaire:
Sandra: Sorry Mom. I thought we had had recent communication. I guess it has been a while. Sometimes I lose track of time and it doesn't seem like its been that long. It seems to happen a lot in Granada for some reason huh? Love the questionnaire. Here is my reply.
I am in
a. Granada
b. Barcelona
c. other ________
Sandra: I am in Granada. Still with Francisco. I leave tomorrow evening for Barcelona and arrive early in the day. Why am I still here? Good question. I think there are many factors involved. The largest being that I have some serious anxiety about going to Barcelona for some reason. Probably because it will be somewhat permanent, for a while, and there is a lot of work to be done when I get there. I began to do some of that here, but as you know, I have never been so good at organizing these things that have so many factors. I just don't know where to begin and can't concentrate on any goal long enough to complete anything.
I am
a. happy
b. sad
c. distraught
d. immobilized
e. confused
d. other ________
Sandra: As far as how I feel. I think I feel all. Immobilized has probably the best word to describe myself since you left due to the factors explained in the paragraph above. Sometimes I agonize over whether I should be away from home. Maybe here isn't the right place to be. But I am here, and also wonder if I wouldn't kick myself for not taking advantage of that. But don't get me wrong, it hasn't been all sad and confusing I have had a wonderful time with Francisco and other friends and love being in Granada.
My plans for this upcoming month are
a. undetermined
b. developing along the lines of ___________
c. established as follows _____________
Sandra: When I get to Barcelona I plan to stay at the INOUT hostel which is run by people with developmental disabilities. It costs about the same as it would to rent a place so I guess I'm not losing money. I will chat them up and see if I can't come up with an arrangement with them work wise. I am a little doubtful because the government is involved. I will stay there until I find an apartment or an alternative place to crash. And also look for jobs. I hope that my mostly unproductive time here has allowed me the rest I needed in order progress rapidly as soon as I hit the streets of Barcelona. I am really looking forward to Lindy Hopping again. I think I get moody when I'm not swingin' and amongst my swingin' compatriots.
Regarding my parents
a. I wish to keep in touch with them
b. who cares
c. I love them madly
d. some of a. b. and c depending on the day and time
Sandra: Regarding my parents. I love them madly and I wish to keep in touch with them. I feel quite a bit of guilt about not meeting them again while they were in Spain. I hope that they weren't too hurt by that and didn't take it personally. I did really want to see them again and I cannot quite explain my actions to the contrary. I just got in this funk concerning my future in Barcelona and couldn't organize to move. Time flew by and you were gone. In the beginning, I had planned to travel with you everywhere, but backed down on those plans because it didn't seem to be what you had in mind.
Sandra: Again I am sorry I haven't been good at keeping in touch. Sometimes I read your letters and think I have responded to them when I haven't. Francisco actually asked me today, "How do you feel about your parents?" "Do you ever just not want to see them?" And I have to say I really couldn't identify with that idea. I went on to say, isn't it wonderful to have some people who biologically and sociologically are designed to love each other and be there for each other unconditionally. It is wonderful to have a family. Another friend asked me in a conversation yesterday, what would you do if you had a month to live? And without a pause our a doubt I said "Well I'd go home and be with my family and friends where I belong." The idea of seeing another country or attending another dance camp or wild festival didn't even enter my head. Hope that clears things up for you.
Love you and miss you madly,
Sandra
