Impenetrability, part 2: Before Breakfast
Trip Start Jun 10, 2008
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- I daresay you haven't had much practice. When I was younger, I always did it for half an hour a day. Why,
sometimes I've believed as many as six impossible things before breakfast.
Ok, so I came here expecting that I would arrive, look for a job, not come even close to finding one, and be obliged to leave but then, under some quasi-miraculous circumstances, a job came to me. But then again it came to an early end and, as I start to search for another one, the circular bureaucracy suggests to me that future events are to go somewhere along the lines of my initial prediction. Then I can't help the question - what exactly was this brief period good for, except for building false expectations?
But first a more fundamental question has to be asked - what is it exactly that makes people fail to achieve their declared goals? I propose there are no more than two possible reasons - the first is that the goal is actually impossible, and the second is that people give up. Then the question of what makes people give up splits the second reason into two more: that the goal seems impossible, or that it is not wanted enough, which is to say, there is no will to put into it the effort it requires, because in the face of the requirements, other goals appear to be more worthy of pursual.
So, to sum it up, three reasons: hard impossibility, i.e. it is actually impossible; soft impossibility, i.e. it is believed to be impossible and that makes it in practice impossible; goal shift, i.e. considering the different rewards and efforts involved in different goals, new ones start drawing more attention than the former.
Well, of these the third can hardly be considered a failure - if you upon having more information find out that you would rather pursue some other objective, it is a good thing to give up on the old ones. That leaves as a source of true failure only impossibility, hard or soft, and it is obviously difficult to determine the boundary that separates them, as not believing an objective is possible is sure to undermine your efforts to achieve that, and it can be truly impossible to do so with half-hearted attempts.
And now, considering my particular case, this unexpected occurrence served to prove, beyond any shadow of a doubt, that it is not actually impossible for me to get a job in Finland, what has the added benefit of also making it impossible for me to believe that it is impossible. Thus, the matter falls entirely on my hands - it all depends on what I am willing to do to remain here, on how much I want it above other things I want, and that means that whatever happens, it can't go wrong - I will either succeed in achieving my goal or decide that I would rather go after another one.
Based on that, I preemptively declare my success, independently of what might happen later.