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Trip Start Dec 28, 2004
Trip End Ongoing

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Thursday, September 28, 2006

its kind of hard to get excited about travelling when you have a 27 hour flight/layover in front of you. for whatever reason i seem to be really disconected with any feelings of excitement at the moment and it seems a bit odd. maybe my brain is still trying to process a whole summer worth of crappy work memories or theres the possibility that i havent really thought about this trip all that much.....well ever since they had a coup de tat i cant really say that but in all honesty i havent mentally placed myself overseas all that much so now that im leaving in about 7 hours it all seems rather hurried and rushed.

i love seeing my family on these trips back to chicago and luckily my grandmother was in town from florida so i had a chance to see her for the first time in a few years. i think my problem with "coming home" lays in the fact that im faced with the only real downside of my travels and thats the fact that its impossible to hold a real relationship with anyone when you are only going to be in the area for 3 weeks a year. the 3 girls that i spent time with this fall all said the same thing with slight variations in wording....."well are you ever going to live in chicago again? when are you settling down?" the fact that ill probably never live in chicago again just drives home the fact that as far as real relationships go, i'm pretty screwed. sure you can say, "well why dont you find a girl that likes to travel" and the response to that is, its surprisingly hard to find another person who can just give everything up and wander the earth aimlessly. my parents are always telling me that this sort of thing takes a special sort of personality but i just thought they were blowing smoke up my ass. now that ive talked about the subject with so many people i have come to realize 2 things. 1st and foremost, apparantly everyone wants to live the life that im living since i have somehow stumbled upon a sort of inner peace shangri-la. the 2nd fact is that people are complete chickenshits when it comes to doing what they actually want. If i had to sum up my feelings about coming home in one sentence i would have to say that coming home reminds me of how lonely life can be sometimes.

once more into the breech my friends, once more into the breach
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