A few months later, I am doing whatever I have to do to score some crank
. I want to keep a personal stash on me, but keep the usage at a minimum. When I snort it, it makes my nose feel like it is on fire, but in a good way. I snort so much that I am awake for days at a time and I can not eat. It gives me such a high that I feel like I can do anything but at the same time (the other part of me, Kristina) feels like I am doing the wrong thing. That is ok because I will make sure Bree stays out and gets me all the crank I need. When I finally do come down, I crash hard. I get the shakes, dizziness, and I puke. Sometimes I black out. But I know eventually I have to crash. When I do, I sleep for atleast 18 hours. I think mom and Scott are starting to realize something is going on with me. Oh well. Ok I am coming down so...........goodnight.
As my journey ends at my dad's house, I have to leave my 2 new best friends. I am going to miss Adam so very much and I am not sure how I can deal without him. As for my other friend crank, I will find someone at home when I return to my mom's house, to help me out with that. Little did I know that this is the start of a very dark world that I can not help on my own. After I get home, nothing is the same, or is it? Is it just me that has changed or everything around me?? I found someone to hook me up in my area, I call him Grade-E. He works at the seven eleven and maybe he can get me a job to help me earn some cash. I have to have cash if i ever want to get out on my own and raise my baby. Hunter is the most handsome baby boy in the world. I am not just saying that because he is mine. I want him to have a good life.