First day jitters!

Trip Start Jul 12, 2008
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Trip End Jan 2009


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Saturday, July 26, 2008

HOLY FUCK! TALK ABOUT NERVE RACKING! so damn worried about starting this tour is unbelievable! i left harvey's place in tears. reason for them, i dont have a bloody clue! I was quite disappointed over our situation, but Im not gonna bother worrying about it. travelling with Harv is awesome, and thats what we're doing the week i get back, so im just gonna look forward to that. but wow, anxiety really has b egan to overtake me in the last year. First it was australia that put me to tears cuz i didnt want my grandpa to leave, and now, London does the same to me. It was quite pathetic though, I must agree with Harvey. Fear of the unknown overtakes anxiety and then the tears start rolling down. Can't prepare yourself in any way.
Ive come to the realization that no matter how many times I've thrown myself in this situation it doesnt get any easier. Ive felt this before, Ive cried over it before, and yet, I cant stop crying over how alone I feel. I tell myself that I am strong, and that i've done it before, and that this will make me a much better person in the end and yet, an hour after, the tears come back.
Im not quite looking forward to the tour just yet, but rather just wanting to get through the next 24 hours!
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