I can do this
Trip Start
May 07, 2004
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Trip End
Jun 27, 2006
I think - or at least hope - that I will cope better over the next two weeks than I did in the past two.
Big picture - Everything's going as it needs to in my life.
Small picture - I'm freaking out like I've never, ever experienced before.
Is it that this one feels more permanent? Or is it the pressure of a seemingly larger job? Maybe it's because I'm leaving everything that feels so comfortable and wonderful right now? Or maybe there were just too many little things that I felt responsible for.
It could be all of this and more, but I've delegated and dealt with many of these funny odds and ends that seemed to be stressing me out, and I'm much better now.
Thank god, because I was REALLY not a fan of the panic attacks and crying sessions and phone calls to random cities around the world. I don't stress often, or over very much, and maybe that's why it hit me so hard. Or maybe I just had too much on my plate, and it's all better now.
I know what I have to do and I can do it. This is the Joanna I remember and love. I don't think panic attacks become me, and as such I intend to quit having them. Friday was the last one. From now on I think we're good.
Thanks all for coming to my funny nights out. Pics to follow.
J
Big picture - Everything's going as it needs to in my life.
Small picture - I'm freaking out like I've never, ever experienced before.
Is it that this one feels more permanent? Or is it the pressure of a seemingly larger job? Maybe it's because I'm leaving everything that feels so comfortable and wonderful right now? Or maybe there were just too many little things that I felt responsible for.
It could be all of this and more, but I've delegated and dealt with many of these funny odds and ends that seemed to be stressing me out, and I'm much better now.
Thank god, because I was REALLY not a fan of the panic attacks and crying sessions and phone calls to random cities around the world. I don't stress often, or over very much, and maybe that's why it hit me so hard. Or maybe I just had too much on my plate, and it's all better now.
I know what I have to do and I can do it. This is the Joanna I remember and love. I don't think panic attacks become me, and as such I intend to quit having them. Friday was the last one. From now on I think we're good.
Thanks all for coming to my funny nights out. Pics to follow.
J


