that only serves to push people away and seem isolated and empty of consideration and empathy. Within, the passionate heart of someone with so much love to give. Why is it so hard to let that shine? What keeps it inside? This journey, a means to self discovery and learning the truths behind my flaws. Yet, even here, sometimes I slip back into old habits and bad tendencies. I know change happens gradually and with perseverance and hard work. No expectations to grow and evolve over night, but to be so unaware of it even with dedicated conscious effort upsets me beyond words. Ignorance makes it easy to overlook your failings, but when you devote everything to bettering yourself and still recognize moments of weakness, it's as clear as day how far you are from reaching that higher plane.
Please show me the way. Help me become a better person, reveal my true self to others, be open to the world and let my compassionate and loving heart light up my relationships with every person I touch. All I ask is within me, and with the support of friends, family, and the people who care about me the most in this life, I know I’ll get there someday. Opening your eyes to your true self is the easy part, molding your outer behavior to match what’s deep in your soul takes time and effort. Please give me patience and understanding to see this through to the end. Every step I take, towards realigning my actions with my intent, another step in the right direction. Grant me courage to walk this path and learn from my mistakes. I know I have the power to change myself. The universe will take care of the rest.
Here I sit, the middle of nowhere. A nameless city street, bustling with the swarm of a hundred faces all around. All strangers, all unfamiliar. Lost in the sea of a waking dream. How did I come so far yet end up right back where I started from? I feel like for every stride I make, every progress forward, something comes back to slap me in the face. A friend I made along this journey, a friend no more. Makes me question who I am and how I come across to strangers. Unknowingly bereft of the understanding to realize how other people see me, see my actions, my words. Am I really that blind to myself? Unconscious behavior