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Buenos Aires, new beginning part II
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Leaving once again! Initially, 8 months ago, I had decided to leave for a few years in a row to travel around the world and follow wherever my feet would lead me, following my heart and my intuition. Now, I am changing my approach a little or should I say that my feet have taken me on a path I was not expecting to? As any initiatic voyage, there are always several parts to it. Similarly, the first part of my trip took me to the coyote sounds of the Arizona desert, to the diversity of Mexico, to the jungle and volcanoes of Guatemala and to the Chaos of India. It took me 6 months to do this first part but initially, I thought that only 2 months would be necessary (India was not included at that time). I understood that in order to really connect to the people, the culture and the Reality one's need more time to experience and integrate. Also, as I was traveling, I decided that the best way to live would be to integrate travel to my life and not live as a traveler and then do something else. The difference can appear subtle at first but is fundamentally different. People have asked me in the last few months what will I be doing after traveling and I could never answer that question. And so it appeared clearly to me that life is lived in the present moment and that I did not want to play a role anymore, the role of the traveler this time, but I wanted to be me... always. And so, I have decided to be a continuous traveler, a continuous dreamer, a continuous adventurer as well as integrating everything all the time in order to awaken the deeply sleeping man inside. In other words, anything I feel and sense, I do and will do until I need something different. And so I had to go back home before I could leave better.
Coming back home was amazing and hard in many ways. Coming out of the jungle of Guatemala and arriving at the modern airport of Guatemala City with it's Chanel boutique and Nintendo Wii store (to only name a few), seeing the travelers connected to the reality of their daily routine, seeing how everything appeared so clean, dry, cold... fake, all of this seemed completely absurd and so weird. I could not stop laughing inside about this absurdity and lack of Reality. I just could not understand why we fight so hard for this illusion we all know to be.
Arriving back in my old environment was interesting as well, because I was now so much more connected to the present moment. I could remember how I used to get so intense, worried and taken by the reality of our modern society. I could clearly see how much happier I was and I felt so much compassion for everyone around me. Like anything new at first, as the time goes by, its reality starts sinking in and what we used to be excited about slowly becomes our every day reality. As my old world slowly became my current world, I could start seeing clearly every element I had left unattended and ran away from as well as old patterns emerging once more. Is our environment so important in making us who we are? Or is it something deeper?
Life being a fractal, old patterns will always pop back up in our life. And so we never really get rid of anything. We repeat again and again and again the same things, fights and experiences until one day we leave this world. For the longest time I thought I was different, that this rule did not apply to me, but I could not have been more wrong. To really know a specific type of cake, we need to have eaten all of it, not just its icing. Before, I was only looking at the experiences themselves but what really matters is the intention of the actions that together creates the experiences we live. It's the source of everything. For every action, there has always been a though prior to it and this is where everything is played.
All of that to say that I had to face once again what I had left behind and fight the same vortices trying to dismantle the new life I had created. Although I have recently addressed so many "new" issues, more will be awaiting upon my return, no doubt. Oh well, I guess I won't reach Nirvana just now :)
So what is new leaving this time? Well, once again I have left with the bare minimum preparations, figuring things as I go. I feel less ecstatic, nervous and curious about the adventure than last time. I feel more assertive and energetic however. I have grown up a lot in the last few months, I know better what I am looking for and will surely go for the head faster. This trip will take me to Argentina, Antarctica, Chili, Bolivia and Peru. Then, we will see :)
Lots of love
Eric
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Re: Safe Travels! (reply)
Feb 17, 2008 16:52 EST by erriuc
Tx for your support :)
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Eric.
Your adventure and journey is inspiring. Your observations are insightful.
Looking forward to seeing how your path unfolds before you. Thanks for sharing.
Safe Travels,
a
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Safe Travels! (reply)
Feb 16, 2008 19:06 EST by ascmak
Eric.
Your adventure and journey is inspiring. Your observations are insightful.
Looking forward to seeing how your path unfolds before you. Thanks for sharing.
Safe Travels,
a
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