Road Trip. Day 12. The Road Home.
Trip Start Jul 22, 2009
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My last written entry was quite depressing. I Quit!
Don't we all get to that point in life where we want to quit? You know, when life just isn't going the way we had hoped it would.
But then something happens and we get energized for the next leg of the journey, or life, as it is. This trip was like that. The day following the one where I quit wasn't much better. The sun had come out for the leg to San Francisco but there was still a lot of wind. Riding the motorcycle with the wind howling off the Pacific wasn't much fun as I was constantly fighting to stay on the road. But I had fine tuned the shocks so that the bike was more stable.
I made a few extra rest stops on the relatively short ride. I stopped at one scenic spot to take some pictures of a lighthouse. Took my prescription sunglasses off so that I could take my helmet off. Take the helmet off. Then CRUNCH!!!!! What was that?
CRAP! The very high winds had blown my sunglasses way behind me. They were now in a dozen pieces. I won't repeat the comment I put on my Facebook account when that happened. The sunglasses themselves were quite expensive. Putting prescription lenses in curved glasses is even more expensive. Yep. CRAP!
Then I get to San Francisco and the route the GPS had for me is down the side streets with stop signs on every block and the steepest inclines. Now that was fun...NOT!
Then things changed. The rest of the trip was amazing.
Probably walked 20 miles up and down the various streets in San Francisco and almost as many in Yosemite. Feet hurt like hell and exhausted. Took a lot of awesome pictures. Just a few posted.
Hung out in Sausalito on the Saturday and took the most amazing photo of the Golden Gate Bridge...with my cell phone. I had decided to ride the motorcycle to Sausalito and not bring my cameras. Yeah, I could have taken dozens of amazing photos there, but it was hazy and some days I prefer to just observe.
Rode back to the San Francisco side of the bay and rode through the Presidio and then stopped to walk near the Golden Gate Bridge. Found the perfect spot to take a picture and the sun was just right...and all I had was my cell phone. I posted the photo to Facebook.
That evening I went to a bar/restaurant for supper. I sat in a corner and observed the other diners. After a while one of the other waitresses came up to me and gave me a compliment. The rest of the evening she would come by and chat when she could get away from her customers.
There was still a lot of wind during the rest of my ride to Yosemite, Sequoia and back to Thousand Oaks.
After my "quitting" entry, I received some feedback from a few people. I still haven't responded to most of them about their comments, but the general reply would be something like this.
Though I went on this "Road Trip" for one reason, the actual reason I had to go was unknown to me until after I experienced what I had to experience. It was during those experiences that I received the information that I required for me to continue on my Journey. I could document the reasons but I won't. It really wouldn't make sense to anyone. Besides, I don't think many people care to know the details anymore. Most are just waiting for the BIG finale.
You know...WHAT happens!
As for really quitting? I don't know. I often do think it's time to give up. But so many amazing things seem to happen after I get to that point that I doubt I ever really could. Maybe that's the idea.
I went to see the movie "The Back-Up Plan". Woman gives up on finding the right guy but still wants to have kids. Gets artificially inseminated and literally "runs into" a guy on her way back from that appointment. Of course, in true Hollywood style, this guy is "THE" guy. Then he freaks when she tells him she's pregnant. To complicate things, there's twins.
Being "THE" guy, he tries sticking around, with the usual ups and downs of movie drama. In one scene he's freaking out more then usual (probably after finding out there are twins) and ends up at a playground. There he starts chatting with a father.
When he asks the father what's it's like the answer is this, Crap, crap, crap, crap....then that amazing moment happens that makes being a parent worthwhile...then crap, crap, crap...and even more crap and again, that sweet moment where a child says or does something that makes all the sleepless nights, dirty diapers, no couple time or adult friends time, sinkhole of money, frustrating yelling and lack of listening, all worthwhile.
Maybe going after your Dreams is the same as having kids. Once you start your Journey of going after your Dreams you can't stop no matter how badly you want to. You can't give your kids back. Guess you can't NOT follow your Dreams.
Maybe making my Dreams come true is harder than it is for most people because I had it so easy with my kids. Once again they've shown me how amazing they are. Alexis had two first places and a second in her first ballroom dance competition. Yeah!
So No, I can't quit. Realizing amazing dreams takes going through a lot of crap with the occasional amazingness to keep you going.
Think It! Feel It! Live It!
PS. This event happened after I returned from my road trip but before I got around to writing this. Spent a day in Santa Monica and saw all these amazing street performers. Check out this talented young woman's website. She has a few of her songs that you can listen to.
PPS. Forgot to mention my amazing motorcycle ride through Sequoia National Park. Took a "short cut" back to the campground and stopped at this awesome bar for something to drink and eat and a long chat with someone (Jade) who was forced (laid off) from her career and ended up in this out in the middle of nowhere bar and has never been happier. Sometimes forced changes in our lives are the best thing for us to find what we are looking for. Check out the website for the bar.