Giving up is an impossible thing to do.

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Tuesday, February 23, 2010

Last Sunday was Valentine`s Day and I went for a motorcycle ride along a windy scenic mountain highway. Left Palm Springs in the heat and sweating and arrived in Idyllwild at the highest elevation in the snow and freezing. The twisty mountain roads were a motorcyclists and sport car drivers dream drive. I was in heaven. Almost.

Lots of people were out for a drive on this Sunday. An accident was just waiting to happen. I stopped for lunch and had a choice, return by the route I arrived by and miss the Interstate, or continue around the loop and have to do 30kms on the high speed Interstate. I continued along the unbeaten path and down the Interstate and found out later that evening that I had made the right choice. Along the road I had driven before lunch a sports car cut into the opposing lane coming round a corner and hit a motorcycle carrying two riders. One died on impact, the second later that evening (I believe).

Could it have been me?

I could say Yes.

Last spring on a drive back from Nanaimo in my Mini Cooper I came around a corner face to face with a semi truck half way into my lane. Fast reflexes, an extra wide lane in that corner, a car that`s mostly sports car, and about 2 seconds saved me.

We never know when it will be "our end". Two seconds is all that saved me from certain death last year. If I would have arrived at that corner two seconds later I would most probably not be here now.

So, could it have been me?

I`m going to say NO!

I believe that I`m always at the right place at the right time. An Angel, in whatever form, is always there, either in my thoughts, or in the actions of other people making sure the "right" things happen in my life. We all worry about other people (my mom always worries about me), but if we really do have faith in our angels why should we doubt that they`ll be there to help when they are really needed. Why? Because bad things happen to good people.Why do teenagers die in car accidents? Why do kids get hit by drunk drivers? Maybe God, the Universe, or just fate, that determines that some things are meant to happen "for the greater good of humanity". Who knows what the "Big Picture" really is.

Am I being smug in not thinking this will not happen to me? Honestly, I`m not afraid of dieing. I think I`ve made a difference in the lives of many. Why couldn`t I die an early (by some standard) death?

This entry isn`t about death, but about giving up. Actually, it`s about not being able to give up because I`ve come too far in what I`m doing. I have experienced so many unexplainable "coincidences" and stuff that makes no logical sense in the past 3 years that I am convinced that having faith that everything happens as it should and when it should that even if I gave up on my Dreams that I would still be convinced that the life I would be living is what I should be living.

But then what would have been the purpose behind me doing what I`ve done the past 3 years? Why document this incredible journey of mine? Nobody really believes me. Nobody else is following in my footsteps and putting all their faith in their dreams and their ability to create the life they are meant to live. Everybody doubts until irrefutable proof is provided. I don`t have any and don`t know what I could do or could happen in my life to actually make people believe that this really really works.

Giving up for me is impossible because I BELIEVE and I have FAITH. No matter what happens. Because I`ve had an amazing 3 years and maybe that`s all I get. But then, that`s more then a lot of people get in life.

Have Faith. Believe It. Thank me later.

But don`t go jumping off a building because you think you can fly. Gravity will still win no matter what your angels say because your purpose in life might be to show that idiots who jump off buildings do die. Some laws are just more powerful then others. But then, your purpose might be to show that miracles do happen. I still play the better odds, no matter how much faith I have.
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