Freakin' OUT!

Trip Start Aug 09, 2008
Trip End Oct 08, 2008

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Flag of Canada  , Alberta,
Saturday, August 9, 2008

D-Day! I leave at 11h59 tonight.
I'm putting a disclaimer right at the beginning saying that if you haven't read my "Paul's Journey" blog a lot of what I will be referring to might not make sense. It would be like watching the movie The Lord of the Rings-The Two Towers (movie 2) without having watched The Fellowship of the Rings (movie 1). The second movie might be entertaining but you'd be missing something in understanding the point of it all. With that said...
...I'm freaking out, or to put it mildly...I'm scared Sh*tless!
Now why? It's not the lack of money as a few hundred dollars did come in (my neighbour owed me) and so I'll be OK for a week or so if I stay in hostels instead of the hotels I had planned on staying in (until the big cheque I'm expecting arrives). Guess I need to have a different experience then I had planned. I also have faith in my family and friends to "come to my rescue" and donate some money through the "Support my Travels"   link at the top of this page if I really get desperate. I don't think any of you would want me sleeping on the side of the road and going would you? What I'm freaking out about is the language barriers (especially for the first part of the trip) and   riding a motorcycle in a  foreign country where I don't understand the language and signs. I'm still not that comfortable driving my motorcycle, especially with the 100lbs of gear on it. No matter how many of my anxieties I overcome (yes, I have an anxiety disorder) there will probably always be one that I haven't "mastered" yet.
It's like my fibromyalgia and chronic fatigue syndrome. I'm slowly learning to handle the symptoms so that I feel better. It's the same with our fears and anxieties. The more we learn to live with them and face them, the easier it is to manage them. We all have fears of the unknown and make them out to be worse then they will end up being.
I finished reading Eckhart Tolle's  "A New Earth-Awakening to Your Life's Purpose".  That is something he talks a lot about in the book. That is, living in the present. Take one day at a time. Worrying about what MIGHT happen doesn't help you out any. So that is what I keep on telling myself...over and over again. Thinking doesn't help us out. Just live the moments that we are provided as they occur. Deep down inside I know that everything will happen the way it should and that nothing serious will happen. I'll get lost a few times. There might be some annoyances with things not going perfectly. But isn't that the whole purpose of experiencing life? Taking everything as it happens. If I had wanted to play it safe I would have stayed home and probably died of boredom in front of the TV.
NO! I made a conscious choice to go and take some chances and experience the world out there. I decided to quit my job and take  a chance that what I believe in will provide me with a substantial source of income. No more safety nets. I'm also going to ride my motorcycle in very unfamiliar locales even though I'm not that experienced at riding yet. The human mind and body is extremely flexible in learning to adapt to new situations. It's the ego that tries to tell us that we can't or shouldn't. The ego likes to be in control and doesn't like it when it's not...which is how it is when you live in the present.
And so, in about 15 hours I will be on German soil trying to communicate with people whose main language is one I don't understand. I will get by the best I can. What's the worst that can happen? Nothing that I know of that I can't handle. Someone or other will speak a little bit of English or French. I might ride my motorcycle down a street I shouldn't be on and everyone will shake their head and say "dumb tourist" as I do have Alberta plates on the bike and Canadian Flags on my panniers. By the way, I've decided to bring O-Hi-O along as my travelling companion and will strap he/she/it somewhere on my bike. For those who don't remember, I picked up O-Hi-O in New Orleans at Mardi Gras and strapped he/she/it to the passenger seat of my truck during the remainder of Paul's Journey.
Now I have to remember that when I get to the airport to check in that I have to ask for a free upgrade to first class. Hey! If you don't won't receive. There's nothing wrong with trying.
Thanks to all those visiting my blog. Comments are appreciated though not expected.
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sasha3474 on

Good Luck Paul
I am looking forward to reading about your adventure!

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