O'torii

hello
Let me say that when you told me about her name and how the japanese know what the names mean I had tears in my eyes. Beautiful/inland sea , wow now i am crying. I cant type long because I tink she is waking up, she's not been in a very good mood when she's been sleeping the past few days. I will google the places you told me to either tonight or tomorrow. That's cool that you got to see a place that you've always wanted to, now you have your own picture of it!!! I just can't get over her name, that means a lot and thank you so much for asking them. how do they know what a name means? That's amazing they knew it was a girl's name. A lot of people when I just say her name ask if 'its a boy or a girl' I dont think sedona sounds like a boys name at all. but oh well. People also ask me how she is and I say she's good and quite funny, they always give me an awkward look, but if they knew her they'd see how a baby can be funny, like a comedian, or maybe its just her cadet voice through tim that I see her as funny... i dont know. I think i did good on my test, i may know tomorrow my grade in the class. The world religions teacher has an 18 month old son and on father's day, his wife told him she was pregnant! what a cool fathers day. Dad is packing some of his stuff up, someone down the road was throwing boxes away so I grabbed them. there will be plenty left for when we leave here too I would think. I mean maybe not though because we have a lot of stuff. I know you will want to stay in the house, but money may be so tight that we can never do anything. I'd rather live in a small cheap place and be able to go places and do things, rather than a big house like ours and just be stuck because all the money goes into the house. I think you agree with me, but I'm not sure what you will want after dad moves. I'm still excited about moving if that's what you want. Anyways I will try to write tomororw morning before I go to class. Wendi and I are going to work out at the Y together early in the morning before she goes to work and before I have class , so I can come home shower, take care of sedona then leave for school. I love you and will google those places soon. Beth and Marlin are getting married at the end of july instead of feb. and I think Kier (her sister) and I are going to put together a little bachelorrete party. Anywho again, tell tim bug says she loves him and that the pool is waiting for him and is nice and warm for them to go swimming! Love you both , she said to tell you she loves you too , 'beach, here we come!' . take care and be safe!!! Oh by the way what day do you come home, I'm going to pick you up on the twenty ninth i think thats the day you get back, because dad's going deep sea fishing on the thirtieth. so let me know the day and time you get in, because i have a lab till 10 that night, and can maybe head from school to fort myers if its around midnight or earlier. Love you!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HAVE FUN!!

ello mate
so its like 3 in morning here, and i'm just waiting for Sedona to wake up, she keeps psyching me out, i know she's bound to wake up soon so i'm too 'scared' to go back to sleep. she has been a little bug when she's been waking up lately, cry, cry, cry. She usually doesn't do that. During the day even which is really weird because after her naps she usually wakes up smiling and revitalized. I took her swimming for a bit today, then Barb came over (healthy families lady) we just had a short meeting but next week shes going to help me with the medicaid for Sedona. She brought more of those cd's the lullaby kind, one for dad to take with him to the apartment. (i told her about that last time, but didn't let dad know because he's sensitive about who knows, weird because its final no matter what so I dont get it) and one for you if you wanted to put it on whenever you go to sleep. The show John and Kate plus eight that i've been watching for quite a while before the huge media picked up on it because of their marriage trouble and John cheating on her supposedly. Well, they announced they were getting a divorce on Monday on their show. I'm proud of them, they are in much of the same situation as you and dad are. Financially and family wise, it would be good for them to stay together, but they just cannot get along so they decided that it is better this way so that their kids do not have to grow up with tension between them, and that they both can start a new chapter and be happy. oh shes waking up!

crouching tiger hidden dragon
ok so i am the crouching tiger she is the hidden dragon, the reverence i put toward my quietness and her slumberness is horrible. I tiptoe away she sounds asleep is close to slumber and then.....SHE MOVES!!! and the cycle starts all over again. She must be my daughter because she lays across the crip with her legs apart. And when she can get away with it, she will put on of her legs over the blanket and use it like a pillow between her legs, much like i did with grandma. also she will turn to her side then to her back then to the other side. this girl cannot get comfortable!! I almost am considering installing a restraint because if i hold her arms and legs down she cant wake herself up because her hands cant get to her face and cannot lift her legs over her head! Also i have considererd just letting her cry it out, because it is getting quite ridiculous. dad says that's how babies are, but i don't think it require an hour and a half to get a baby to go back to sleep. i know you are laughing now, but at 5 months there should be a pattern, eat bottle , suck on binky, go back to sleep. She should be able to do this i would think now. if i am not up before she wakes up and have the bottle ready at her first sign of distress well hell its over. and if I do not do the tiptoe run back to the room once she has lost her binky....well hell its over again! If i am not there when she turns her head to the other side and cannot get comfortable....well hell its over , once again! I cannot keep living like this!! HAHA. this laugh is one of those 'on the verge of psychosis laughs' . just kidding....maybe. I'm excited to start biology this semester, so let tim know he needs to put his thinking cap on again, tomorrow i will sign him up for an orientation. In october I am going up with beth and marlin to kier and travis' house. They have a hog weekend, where i guess they roast a hog and such. they are the married couple and beth is kiers sister who I hung out with in high school. and pretty much stopped when i went to college, except one time when jordan and i went over there. well i lvoe you dads computer is going to die soon i havent taken mine out of bag since i printed paper out at school. have fun and love you!! See all the beautiful sights! tell tim i love him too!

crouching tiger hidden dragon
ok so i am the crouching tiger she is the hidden dragon, the reverence i put toward my quietness and her slumberness is horrible. I tiptoe away she sounds asleep is close to slumber and then.....SHE MOVES!!! and the cycle starts all over again. She must be my daughter because she lays across the crip with her legs apart. And when she can get away with it, she will put on of her legs over the blanket and use it like a pillow between her legs, much like i did with grandma. also she will turn to her side then to her back then to the other side. this girl cannot get comfortable!! I almost am considering installing a restraint because if i hold her arms and legs down she cant wake herself up because her hands cant get to her face and cannot lift her legs over her head! Also i have considererd just letting her cry it out, because it is getting quite ridiculous. dad says that's how babies are, but i don't think it require an hour and a half to get a baby to go back to sleep. i know you are laughing now, but at 5 months there should be a pattern, eat bottle , suck on binky, go back to sleep. She should be able to do this i would think now. if i am not up before she wakes up and have the bottle ready at her first sign of distress well hell its over. and if I do not do the tiptoe run back to the room once she has lost her binky....well hell its over again! If i am not there when she turns her head to the other side and cannot get comfortable....well hell its over , once again! I cannot keep living like this!! HAHA. this laugh is one of those 'on the verge of psychosis laughs' . just kidding....maybe. I'm excited to start biology this semester, so let tim know he needs to put his thinking cap on again, tomorrow i will sign him up for an orientation. In october I am going up with beth and marlin to kier and travis' house. They have a hog weekend, where i guess they roast a hog and such. they are the married couple and beth is kiers sister who I hung out with in high school. and pretty much stopped when i went to college, except one time when jordan and i went over there. well i lvoe you dads computer is going to die soon i havent taken mine out of bag since i printed paper out at school. have fun and love you!! See all the beautiful sights! tell tim i love him too!

hi
ok so i'm going to go back to bed. I looked at my transcript my world religion grade is not there, my gpa is a 2.72 which is good standing it says, but if I get the A in world religions which I hope to get it will boost that up, and if i bug the english teacher enough about how to do 'GREAT' on my papers not just 'GOOD' I aim for an A in that class which will boost it up more. I am taking American government in the fall, which is a class I withdrew from whenever I went to first step. I have considered maybe taking a course in oh god i forgot the name, boink! the kind where you draw blood, and can draw it from the hospital and work on the BIG RED BUS, if i do not get into the ultrasound program the first time after I meet the required courses, I am going to do that so that I can have a job. Also Barb knows where I can get a job, but I am not sure how I will have someone watch Sedona, many people go to school and work, but I don't know how to do this. Maybe you can give me some input on what you think. I'd love to work again, but not at the expense of my grades dropping, but i may not have a chance to get a job again this easily in our economic times. so there are the prose and cons . Sedona was with Ally for about an hour today, then I went to Beths house and hung out then went and picked her back up. Ally got a little walker for Sedona (she didn't know about the hip thing, and I'm not going to tell her because she wont be in it long enough to mess up her hips, and that might hurt ally's feelings after she bought Sedona it.) she told Marrissa she has a sister, and Marrissa really wants to see her. She thinks that Myles-Anne, Marrissa's mom, will actually let Marrissa see her eventually because Marrissa will keep bugging her to 'see her sister' she is finally aloud to talk to Ally when she wants. Ally called DCFS on Myles anne because she just went out and partied and left Marrissa with her grandparents who live in a broken down house, where animals were mistreated, and I think Marrissa had to sleep in a closet or something, not like lock her in a closet but didn't have enough room, maybe how tim did while he was at the model un one time. Tim is in jail for a year and two days, not long enough I think. Ally has been told and understands that I am not going to let Tim see her, and I do not have to worry about Ally letting Tim see her at her house if Sedona's there, because she does not want Tim there either. Ally will see Tim I'm sure just not at her house. But she fully understands that I will not let Tim see her, but she is welcome to see Sedona or let Sedona come over whenever she likes (if I am not doing anything, and can bring her over). I've thought it over and I think Ally sees a different side of the story than before about the money and Tim. She has pretty much given up on him, but I know its hard to, because he is her son. I have a feeling after the year is over and he is released that he will be going right back or not be around here because he has nowhere to live, unless he wants to stay with his druggie friends, which he'll end up back 'in the pen' (hehe) anyways. Dont worry because I know you will, I am not going to file for child support because I will not let him see her, and having Sedona see Ally and asking Tim to pay child support may lead to him being able to get visitation. But if I do not ask for child support, and his name is not on B.C. , and I do not think Ally will take his side on this just from the way she talked about him and the silent agreement that i am not negotiable on letting him see her and I dont think she wants him to either at this time, nor does she want to jeopordize not seeing Sedona. Though I told her that no matter what I have to do about Tim, killing him etc. that it will not affect her because she does not control him or his motives or revenge, whatever it may be. She brought a lot of toys back with her from north carolina from her daughter who has the toys from her son, who is too big for them now. So she gave them to me, they are nice toys for when she is a bit older. Some of them are pretty cool that I wish they were in adult sizes. She said she hopes you do not hate her, she didn't say hate it was more like she hopes you dont look down on her for what tim has done. Carrie has turned out fine, and she just thinks tim has chosen a path of no return. She has researched and kind of knows the chances of him getting clean and staying off drugs now. so she is no longer in denial about tim or what may come of the future. I thanked her for telling Marrissa bout Sedona because I really wanted her to know that she has a sister. When Marrissa is older and can argue her way to see Ally and Sedona I think that she will be around. Marrissa has a really big heart and is an only child so she will like to have a baby to play with , well when Sedona is older a toddler to play with because I am not quite sure I could let her play with Sedona as a baby, although she has been around lots of babies from her aunts and such. Anyways, hmm dont forget to let me know about the flight and time to pick you up. I don't know if you'll be able to call , or if I can answer the phone depending on school if you are in the continental united states for your flight back. Dad has written tim a cute note from Sedona giving him the red rock. Tim can have the red rock because I'm sure he'll take good care of it, and it will still be around so I dont have a problem with dad doing it. Doesn't sound like Sedona saying it but he wrote at the end - prepared by family. Its nice to see dad do that because hes trying to get involved again I think which is a good sign. I love you guys and hope all is well (once again) and that you are having fun. btw the guy who wrote ' You light up my life' has been indicted on rape charges, and all kinds of stuff telling girls they were auditioning for a movie which he flew them to his home and i guess drugged them. just some interesting American news for you. LOVE YOU and 'take lots of pictures' sedona said. She also said she loves you and to tell uncle tim she loves him too. She keeps bugging me about when you will get back, and if she can play with uncle tim when he gets home. I said she'd have to ask him. And she said 'ok mom, but I know hell play with me'. good night, which is my morning!

hi
ok so i'm going to go back to bed. I looked at my transcript my world religion grade is not there, my gpa is a 2.72 which is good standing it says, but if I get the A in world religions which I hope to get it will boost that up, and if i bug the english teacher enough about how to do 'GREAT' on my papers not just 'GOOD' I aim for an A in that class which will boost it up more. I am taking American government in the fall, which is a class I withdrew from whenever I went to first step. I have considered maybe taking a course in oh god i forgot the name, boink! the kind where you draw blood, and can draw it from the hospital and work on the BIG RED BUS, if i do not get into the ultrasound program the first time after I meet the required courses, I am going to do that so that I can have a job. Also Barb knows where I can get a job, but I am not sure how I will have someone watch Sedona, many people go to school and work, but I don't know how to do this. Maybe you can give me some input on what you think. I'd love to work again, but not at the expense of my grades dropping, but i may not have a chance to get a job again this easily in our economic times. so there are the prose and cons . Sedona was with Ally for about an hour today, then I went to Beths house and hung out then went and picked her back up. Ally got a little walker for Sedona (she didn't know about the hip thing, and I'm not going to tell her because she wont be in it long enough to mess up her hips, and that might hurt ally's feelings after she bought Sedona it.) she told Marrissa she has a sister, and Marrissa really wants to see her. She thinks that Myles-Anne, Marrissa's mom, will actually let Marrissa see her eventually because Marrissa will keep bugging her to 'see her sister' she is finally aloud to talk to Ally when she wants. Ally called DCFS on Myles anne because she just went out and partied and left Marrissa with her grandparents who live in a broken down house, where animals were mistreated, and I think Marrissa had to sleep in a closet or something, not like lock her in a closet but didn't have enough room, maybe how tim did while he was at the model un one time. Tim is in jail for a year and two days, not long enough I think. Ally has been told and understands that I am not going to let Tim see her, and I do not have to worry about Ally letting Tim see her at her house if Sedona's there, because she does not want Tim there either. Ally will see Tim I'm sure just not at her house. But she fully understands that I will not let Tim see her, but she is welcome to see Sedona or let Sedona come over whenever she likes (if I am not doing anything, and can bring her over). I've thought it over and I think Ally sees a different side of the story than before about the money and Tim. She has pretty much given up on him, but I know its hard to, because he is her son. I have a feeling after the year is over and he is released that he will be going right back or not be around here because he has nowhere to live, unless he wants to stay with his druggie friends, which he'll end up back 'in the pen' (hehe) anyways. Dont worry because I know you will, I am not going to file for child support because I will not let him see her, and having Sedona see Ally and asking Tim to pay child support may lead to him being able to get visitation. But if I do not ask for child support, and his name is not on B.C. , and I do not think Ally will take his side on this just from the way she talked about him and the silent agreement that i am not negotiable on letting him see her and I dont think she wants him to either at this time, nor does she want to jeopordize not seeing Sedona. Though I told her that no matter what I have to do about Tim, killing him etc. that it will not affect her because she does not control him or his motives or revenge, whatever it may be. She brought a lot of toys back with her from north carolina from her daughter who has the toys from her son, who is too big for them now. So she gave them to me, they are nice toys for when she is a bit older. Some of them are pretty cool that I wish they were in adult sizes. She said she hopes you do not hate her, she didn't say hate it was more like she hopes you dont look down on her for what tim has done. Carrie has turned out fine, and she just thinks tim has chosen a path of no return. She has researched and kind of knows the chances of him getting clean and staying off drugs now. so she is no longer in denial about tim or what may come of the future. I thanked her for telling Marrissa bout Sedona because I really wanted her to know that she has a sister. When Marrissa is older and can argue her way to see Ally and Sedona I think that she will be around. Marrissa has a really big heart and is an only child so she will like to have a baby to play with , well when Sedona is older a toddler to play with because I am not quite sure I could let her play with Sedona as a baby, although she has been around lots of babies from her aunts and such. Anyways, hmm dont forget to let me know about the flight and time to pick you up. I don't know if you'll be able to call , or if I can answer the phone depending on school if you are in the continental united states for your flight back. Dad has written tim a cute note from Sedona giving him the red rock. Tim can have the red rock because I'm sure he'll take good care of it, and it will still be around so I dont have a problem with dad doing it. Doesn't sound like Sedona saying it but he wrote at the end - prepared by family. Its nice to see dad do that because hes trying to get involved again I think which is a good sign. I love you guys and hope all is well (once again) and that you are having fun. btw the guy who wrote ' You light up my life' has been indicted on rape charges, and all kinds of stuff telling girls they were auditioning for a movie which he flew them to his home and i guess drugged them. just some interesting American news for you. LOVE YOU and 'take lots of pictures' sedona said. She also said she loves you and to tell uncle tim she loves him too. She keeps bugging me about when you will get back, and if she can play with uncle tim when he gets home. I said she'd have to ask him. And she said 'ok mom, but I know hell play with me'. good night, which is my morning!

wow
wow I just looked at all my comments, and they are very long, do you think I miss you guys or what? Love you!

hey
well guess no internet for you today or whatever how it works over there, day night , yesterday tomorrow, i always think in your time, i look to see waht time it is then i go 'then it is ___ time in japan'. so we went to dads new apartment today to meet the landlord, and oh my god it is beautiful. Please dont be upset because I think it is beautiful. I am happy dad found a place that he can afford. But I think if you see it youll know what i mean, and have to agree. It is a wow, beautiful. fourth of july weekend i am sorry but it must be spent there to see the fireworks without it scaring sedona. or hurting her ears. So, I went to new classes today, English professor will not let the abscense for clinical trial count against me. She was interested in it. And she also said she will count the paper from last semester for this one, I asked if I could write a different paper for the assignments the grade was not what I wanted or expected, she said I welcome to do that. And the biology class is really cool. All the people there are really nice and we did quite a funny yet very hard experience today. The professor is a hunk of burning love. He is the definition of those men with the strong and pronounce jaw, blonde hair, i assume blue eyes, tall and built, tan . pretty much tall dark and handesome. the class seems interesting , although we wont be disecting anything. there is a rat in the classroom that I guess they breed to feed the snake that is in there too. the rat had newborn babies in the class. And oh my god they were actually really cute, which made the rat really cute when she was feeding them her milk. they look like human babies at about 11 weeks inside the uterus. Weird but now you can have a new look on things maybe. probably not...but you never know. The lab will probably take till about 10 o'clock every time we have it. We have a very condensed schedule , so we pretty much use the entire time. it focuses on the cellular level primarily throughout the course. And will focus on the smallest level - species to the largest level Genus, and will probably skip the entire middle of the animal kingdom. the book is worth buying because it is written by people for mcc. and also this guy puts all the notes up online, so i can pay attention in class without having to scribe down at 100 miles per hour the notes. Print them out before class , follow along and wallah, easier way of learning. also gave us a website to find out if we are autidory learners, or visual (by reading) learners. which i plan to take probably tomorrow before class. It seems interesting and I think I will enjoy it. There is a girl named Adelle who is in both my english and bio class, she is 38 and plans to be a research on a cellular level (CDC kind of work) or research on breast cancer because it runs in her family. she seems really nice and warm hearted even though she's almost twice my age , although she does not look it at all, she almost looks like she could be my age or 25, not because she dresses like it, just her figure and face look so young compared to her age! WEIRD ! Hope you guys are doing well. sedona misses you and i think i'm becoming a commercial again, because she's getting a lot more fussy than she usually is. I will probably write more later or in a few more minutes but i'm going to try to check my grade for my W.R. class, oh and tim will not be able to sign up for classes until after july first, probably not any different because you guys get back on 29 but just letting you know. I love you both and hope all is well, let me know how you are doing, and still amazed at Sedona's name. I told dad and he thought that was very cool, and beautiful. She is something else. We went to the Golden Corral after the apartment and oh my gosh 'she's so cute, she's such a doll, she's beautiful, how old is she, she's so pretty sleeping like that, what a nice baby, etc, etc, etc' Geez louise, who is louise? She gets a lot of attention. bah hum bug. Love you and will write more later. Tell tim hi and that Dad , I and Bug love him and miss him. TTFL - ta ta for now, and smell ya later! MUA