Kadama 16: Changing from within
Trip Start Jul 12, 2012
71Trip End Dec 01, 2012
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Yesterday was my first "real" Kuchipudi dance class because I was sick last week. For the first hour, we practiced the basic steps and hand movements. Boy I tell ya, I was sweating so much just from simple bent leg positions and raised elbows. I am already having a great time learning it though. Through the pain in my calf muscles and my tight arm muscles, I snuck out a smile just absorbing the setting and what I was actually doing. How many people can actually say that they learned Kuchipudi Dance in India by a dancer who has done it all their life? The instructor is pretty intense just because she knows that we all want to do our best. Blunt would be the best word for her but nonetheless, she makes the class enjoyable and teaches us while we are having fun practicing it.
This morning I went to yoga and again, for the first hour we did the practice portion and the second hour we learned about the art, history, and basics of yoga
The instructor spoke about how our mind is blind and we must, as individuals, set our conscious on the shoulders of the mind and guide it. You do not have a mind until you are conscious about it and what it is doing. I have never really looked at my mind in this light. It is true though – we must be conscious of our whole self, everything about us in order to monitor our mind.
Another point that I am going to stress upon myself is that we as people need to not work on changing the world. I am always thinking about how I can make a change in the world whether it is through my profession or through my writing. I need to stop and steer my inner energy to focus on me and not on the world. We as individuals must work on ourselves and then the product will be the world changing around us.
“Work on changing yourself and things around you will change” is going to be my new motto.
I am constantly trying to change the way people do things in life, especially in regards to my boyfriend. It is like I know deep down what is best for him but do I really? No, I do not because he is his own entity and he does what is right for him, what makes him happy. I need to stop worrying and mapping out how thing are SUPPOSED to be and work on myself. If I am happy with myself then things around me will change for the better.
I apologize for any hurt or negativity that I may have inflicted upon anyone. This class has already taught me so much and I am going to carry this personal change and practice of yoga with me throughout my everyday life from here on out. I love the way I feel and granted, I am always a happy person but I need to be happy deep inside first.
Lastly, you must know that every word carries certain energy. My instructor's example was that her son was running to fast and she said “don’t fall”. Right then, that expression carries negative energy provoking his mind to make him fall. Rather than stressing negative energy, you must say “be careful”. Choose your words wisely and live the life you were meant to live.