Dont know where to begin
Trip Start
Aug 30, 2009
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Trip End
Jul 24, 2010
Lyon,
Rhône-Alpes,
France
Sunday, November 8, 2009
I suppose I can begin my blog with what a great and interesting time I had at le musee des frères Lumiers. For those of you who don't know (but jimmy you should!!) They would the creators of the cinema. And believe it or not they lived and created the cinema here in Lyon. Yes I live in the city where the very first movie in the world was created. It was filmed here, along with many others at various places in Lyon. Many of these places I am familiar with, which makes it even cooler.
I not only got to watch the first film, but I saw the very first camera ever created and stood where the film was taken; pretty much really cool. Turns out our little Thomas Eddison also gave a very helpful invention to the film as well. Thanks to him we were able to have the images spinning on a wheel, which gave a big change to the film industry. I toured the house that the brothers lived in and it was gorgeous and huge and unbelievable. I had such a great time with Virginie and Julie.
Crappy part is that the next afternoon I got reprimanded for my attitude. Basically torn to shreds with words and I stood there speechless with nothing to say. For those of you who know me, you know that I ALWAYS have something to say, always. So, me speechless is a rare occasion and frankly it has to say something. It totally sucked though because I didn’t know what to say. Even though what she said made sense from her perspective it’s not being perceived right. For example, why do I spend so much time in my room? Answer, because it’s the only place I feel is my own. I feel like I cant be downstairs unless I am working, which I am not always working. So when I have free time I feel like if I am downstairs hanging out I am being lazy and should be doing something. Another thing is I don’t always eat meals with them. Weekdays they get home later and eat late so I eat with Julie and weekends I am either out with my friends or sleeping in because its my free time. All of that and more is perceived as a bad attitude and not wanting to be involved.
That’s really just the tip of the iceberg. I am not even going to get into the rest, but basically I have enough to deal with in my own personal life than to add everything else that their asking me to deal with. It’s so confusing and I feel like there is no way to make my feelings clear. They want me to tell them what I am unhappy about here, but how am I supposed to say well Michel treats me like I am a slave and I can’t keep up with Julie because of your parenting choices. Um I can’t say that, that’s the problem. Long story short things kinda blow right now. Here there everywhere and I feel a little helpless about it.
Well see what happens in the next week or so. They have family coming to visit this weekend and then were going to have a "serious discussion" about the way things are. I have no idea what to expect. No idea at all.
Until next time,
Xoxo
UPDATE:!!!!
Its Sunday afternoon. Had a fabulous weekend with Virginie, Michel, Julie their cousins Clara, Charlotte and Michels brothers George, Jean, and their wives. No awkwardness since the scolding. I have been trying harder to make an effort and be more myself. I have gotten a little lost in my mind lately I suppose. I did lots of stuff and will write about it later but wanted to update on the "problem".
"the serious discussion" has not happened yet but I am more positive about it after having had such a great weekend. I have more reason to want to make things work,
Will write more when i know more..
MISS YOU ALL
